I know we’ve talked about this before, but it’s happening again and it’s been happening a lot lately, not sure why. I’m not sleeping, or more acurately, I’m sleeping very little.

Don’t get me wrong, I love to sleep, I really do, it’s wonderful, and luxurious, and cozy, and important, but for some reason, someone forgot to tell me in order to have those fabulous feelings, you actually have to close your eyes! ha ha

This happened again last night, it was 10p, 11p, 12a, this is normal so far. Then it was 1am, 2am, still normal, mostly. I think somewhere in there, I nodded off for about 15-20 minutes and therein lies the rub, I slept…apparently dozing or a nap, would you consider it a nap at 2am? I fall asleep for 15-20 minutes an that is a signal to my body, my brain, my synapses that I am clearly not tired and 100% awake and therefore, I should start thinking about things!

Or if not thinking about things, my eyes just cannot seem to close again, as much as i want to and try to force them. The light is off…the tv is off…the tv is on…the fan is on…maybe if I put on a movie that I know so well and turn over, I can fall asleep to the background noise, and drift off to sleep. Yeah, well, that didn’t happen!

3am…4am…almost 5am and I’m starting to bargain with, I don’t know who I’m bargaining with…’um, hello out there, in the universe, I’d really like to sleep now’, somehow that doesn’t work, I can’t imagine why! Not exactly sure how or why, but somewhere between 5 and 530a, I drifted off into la la land! Wah to the hoo!

My alarm went off at 6am…noooooo! I snoozed of course! About 640a, I rallied, got up, dressed, and made my way downstairs to get the pups to take them for their morning walk. I am awake now! We did our 1.5 miles around the neighborood, back for breakfast for them and breakfast for me, then off to work, it’s a long commute from the kitchen to my home office!

Well, actually, I had to stop at the bedroom, across from the office, to change into what I was going to wear for the day, I can’t teach in flannel-lined jeans, I would burn up, but they are amazing for walking the dogs when it’s 35 and windy out!

One of the perils of working from home is that sometimes, like today, I’m not sure when i realized I hadn’t actually brushed my teeth yet! But…one of the beauties of working from home…you can brush your teeth whenever you need/want to, who’s going to smell your breath through the pc screen? Technology hasn’t gotten that far has it?

It is at this point I realize I am holding true to my blog…it is about everything and nothing, which is what we have spiraled into here. We? I know, me! Anyway, my normal night is about 3-4 or 5 hours, so, fall asleep between 1-4am, up between 5-6am, that really is normal for me. Fully functional when I wake up, go all day and do it again. Sleep when I’m tired and then, do it again. I will go weeks and then one day, I am just zonked, so I’ll sleep 8 hours, more if I’m really lucky. That seems to charge my battery and I’m good to go, until the next time I need sleep.

No, I don’t take any pills or sleep aids, I think if I was tired all the time or couldn’t function, I would, but I seem to do ok and take a break when I need it. Some days I’m more productive in the middle of the night, I craft, I read, I watch movies, I play games on my phone, I write, I talk to you [sometimes all at the same time!]…I like the last one a lot! I seem to do it a lot! Thank you for being my friend! O M G! i just created my own ear worm!

You know those times I say, ok, it’s time for me to pretend to fall asleep, well, now you know what’s about to happen when I say that. Ok, so…here I go, it’s 12:18am and I was up until 5am last night, but I fell asleep on the sofa for about an hour, I can feel myself waking up as we speak. Let’s go see if I get up, put on my jammies and get into bed.

Fingers crossed, g’night!